With a heavy heart…

I must tell you,

Atticus has left us.

He passed New Year’s Eve.

We found him laying on the lawn, in his little coat.

I cannot express my feelings in that moment.

Poor Scout was distraught.

We don’t know for sure what happened.

The vet thinks either he ingested something or had an arrhythmia in his heart.

We didn’t do a necropsy because I couldn’t bring myself to do that with this little puppy body – and because the vet said that the results might be inconclusive for either diagnosis.

My husband sobbed as he buried our boy.

Atticus was very special.  We told him – and each other – that very thing every day.

We’d say, “How did we get so lucky to find puppies like these.  And Atticus is such a great dog…”

Atticus was mellow, sweet and had started to follow me everywhere – exactly what I loved about Nomar.  So calm and protective.

I am devastated.

Poor Scout… she is lost.

Nomar and Dex, I sure hope you escorted this wonderful boy into doggie heaven.

I just don’t understand…




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  1. michelle

    Oh no! I just read this, and my heart breaks for you. I’m so sorry.

  2. Peg

    So very sorry for your loss. It’s particularly bad when it’s unexpected. He looked like he was a real sweetie.

  3. Christine Stone

    I am so very sorry for the loss of you sweet puppy Atticus. My thoughts and prayers are winging their way from England to you and your family. xx

  4. Cindy Seinar

    So very sorry to hear about Atticus. And his name was so special! I will be thinking of you and sending a little prayer up past Rainbow Bridge.

  5. ~ cheryl mendenhall

    Dawn – I ache right along with you for your loss of Atticus. He was lucky to find you and your husband and to have been so loved. Not understanding why is familiar to all of us who’ve lost loved ones “before their time”. Take care of yourself, each other and Scout. ~ cheryl

  6. Rachael Hess

    Joe told me last night that Atticus was gone. It feels like a member of our extended family has left us. We always call Clive our “first born son”, so I can imagine how deeply it hurts to loose Atticus. We watched him come into this world, and you watched him leave. He couldn’t have spent his short life in a more loving home than yours. We are so sad that he is gone.

  7. Christine

    I am so sorry. I am crying with you because I know how you feel. So many pets give us more happiness than people ever could. I am sure he is waiting at the Rainbow Bridge for you. i know that he knew he was loved and that is all we can really do. I hope your heart heals soon. I am sending prayers and good thoughts your way. Christine

  8. Shirley

    My heart goes out to you–The EXCATE same thing happened to us 7 years ago, literally 3 days before Christmas–I hated to have a necropsy done, but was afraid someone had poisened my precious Bob. He was fine when we went to bed, and we got up to him layed out on the floor (I thought he was sleeping). Necropsy showed Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy,–congenital, no symptoms, no warning signs. We still have his brother, who is 11 years old and is fine…I just don’t understand why these things happen to people like you, who have done so much for horse rescue…God bless you and your husband…

  9. Casey

    Damn, that is so not fair. Poor little fella never had a life! My heart aches for you and your husband and Scout.

  10. Nancy V.

    2012 was a tough year for you and your fur kids. My thoughts are with you and your family.

  11. Angie

    Dear Dawn….words cannot express how terribly sorry I am for you losing so suddenly your sweet pup Atticus. I’ve lost enough animals in my life to know that awful heartache. It is especially hard when the animal is so young, and it’s so unexpected. Sending a very big hug and condolences for everyone in your family.

  12. Doug

    This picture was a harbinger of things to come. He was put here first to let you know that he will forever watch over you and yours from above. And then he must go do his work.

  13. pkquest

    I am heartbroken for you…so very sorry for your family’s loss.
    From the first time you posted him I was intrigued…special boy.

  14. Valrey Van Gundy


    So sorry to hear of this new loss…May you find comfort in having loved Atticus, even for just the short while he was on this earth.


  15. Patty

    I am so sorry for your loss,words cannot express my sorrow.

    Our pets are such a part of our families, I have been there, for us it was a Christmas day several years ago, about 10pm, when I found our beloved cat had been hit by a car. She managed to come home one last time. She was the best Kitty ever! Many other pets have joined our family since that time. Which at the moment includes 2 more cats, a very special mini Aussie we rescued, numerous fish and my life time dream come true… my horse, a 19 yr old Appy; all very loved and very special… Meeko’s memory is so precious to me.

    prayers and Blessings of comfort to you and your family at this time.

  16. Arliss

    Oh Dawn, I am so, so sorry. How special that you have this photo of him practicing with angel’s wings and looking at you with those beautiful, soulful eyes. Surely Nomar and Dex and others lovingly welcomed him as he passed from this world to the next. I am so sorry that your time with him was so short. I and several others I know also lost dear ones this New Year’s Eve. It must have been a very special welcoming day in heaven. It was a sad and very thoughtful New Year’s Day for us too. My deepest condolences to you and your husband for the sudden loss of this beautiful family member from your lives. May his spirit always stay with you as a loving, comforting presence. You and your husband and Scout are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Bless you, sweet Atticus puppy, as you play and run in heavenly fields.

  17. Delrene

    Dear Dawn and your family

    It is so hard to understand why, especially such a young little fellow. There are no words to fill the huge hurt in your heart. Little Scout needs you to help her understand the loss of her brother. Please take comfort in those that remain under your loving care. We all cried with you this morning.

    My heart hurts too. Bless you and your family

  18. lila the horsemuse

    We never know what exactly our animal guardians mission is when come to us, we can only hope and pray that we will get to be in their presence for a good long time. We pray for you heart to heal. Thank you for all you do, sweet Dawn.

  19. Ritambhara Tyson

    It’s with tears that I write how sorry I am to hear of your loss. It’s so hard to lose these angel beings that are our animals.

  20. Robynne Catheron

    Oh my dear Dawn, I am heartbroken for you. Such a sweet little boy to be gone so soon. Many hugs are on the way to you.

  21. Joanie

    I am so sorry my friend…he was a lucky boy to have had you for an owner. You will see him again one day….in this life, we certainly will not understand things…again I am so sorry. I know how much you loved this pup.

  22. Vicki Long

    So so sorry Dawn. I too lost a beloved dog on 12/27 and I am heartbroken.

  23. KarenTX

    I am so sorry for your loss. Hard to understand when they are that young. Hugs.

  24. Theresa Hamilton

    I am so sorry to hear about puppy Atticus. I was so looking forward to watching him grow up with his sister, thru your eyes. He is now over the rainbow watching after all of you with your other fur babies.

  25. MET

    So so sorry, Dawn. You have had much more than your share of loss lately. Prayers for Scout and for you and your husband.

  26. Mary Lu Kennedy

    I cry with you this morning. You have had so much loss in such a short time. My heart goes out to you. I know that all of your readers feel the same way. Stay strong for all of the other little ones who depend on you.

  27. Kitty Bo wilson

    I am so, so sorry. This is so very, very sad. My heart goes out to you both.

  28. Jan

    I am so very sorry to hear about Atticus. I am sure the others greeted him warmly as he went over the Rainbow Bridge.

  29. Toni Rohm

    I am so sorry to hear about Atticus. I know words can’t fill the hole that has been left behind in your heart. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband as you try to come to grips with this huge loss. Again, I am so sorry.

  30. Robin Miles

    So sad for Dawn and her family to lose this precious little boy Atticus, so sudden,so young ,so loved .Run freely over the bridge,forever young.
    Prayers for the Broken hearted who loved him so.
    Robin Jude

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