OMG.

OMGOMGOMG!!!  I’m A-L-I-V-E!

I feel like I was stuck and suffocating in a weird, Alice in Wonderland spiraling-out-of-control cyber rabbit hole for a week.

“What happened?!!!  Where are all the words?!!!”

Poof!  The blog had evaporated. It was all gone.

Nothing made sense and on one could fix it!

Aaaaghhhhhh!

At first,  I thought my site’s disappearance was a simple server thing…

Then when I learned that we had terminally outgrown our now melted servers, I became frantic that all three years of the blog were gone.  (I had always planned on backing everything up…)

I was frustrated and despondent.  It was as if someone had kidnapped my beloved pet and there was absolutely NOTHING I could do to get it back.

I was hamstrung.  I didn’t know what to do.

Several frantic days ensued which were so monumentally technically ridiculous I felt I was part of a Keystone Cop movie.  Round and Around and Around she went –

You see, once the website files were recovered (long story – phew!), I made the decision to go with a professional, sophisticated and robust hosting company.  Except… I’m not professional, sophisticated or robust at this type of thing.  In fact, I’m kinda stoopid when it comes to code and servers and html and blah blah blah ginger.

(My previous host was much more user-friendly and personable… sigh. )

“Huh?” I found myself saying… often.  “Are you speaking English?  I missed that, could you send me a diagram because I have no idea what you mean…”

I’m just a blogger.

Eventually, however, I muddled through while these professionals made me put on my big girl pants and step up to the plate.

They made me realize that my little baby blog grew without me really realizing it (like most parents) and then demanded that I purchase a better car to drive to wherever we were going together…  ;)

So, now the site, and my notsobaby blog run on a platform fit for the wonderful weight of all of us who read it…

And tonight, here I am, alive and well, albeit emotionally exhausted (ask Hubby), and finally secure that 3 years of my blabbing is safe – and that I can once again, talk to all of you.

That means a lot to me.  And, I never knew that until this happened.

Oh sure, I knew that I loved to write the blog.

But I never knew that I now think of this blog as a part of me.

Without it, I felt a bit bare and like a lesser version of myself.  I was heartshocked to lose it.

So even though this week was an emotional roller coaster and very expensive, it was an eye-opener with a silver lining.

I now look at this journey, wherever it takes me, differently.  I still don’t know what motivates me to write every day.  But at least I do know that being here in cyberspace with you all, feeds my soul.

A blessing in disguise.

 

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