I wanted to take this day to appreciate all of you who champion for the sick… Every. Single. Day.
You, who have sick family members or chronically sick animals, my hat is tipped to you.
The Emotional Roller coaster of Chronically Sick horses.
As you all know, MamaTess is very sick with founder.
I don’t often update on her condition because I really don’t want to say anything because her condition varies daily… sometimes hourly.
I really only want to give you good news.
But when one is this sick, it is literally, touch and go. A long way to ‘home free’.
A roller coaster of emotion rumbling along daily.
Her condition is now chronic.
To be honest, I liked ‘acute’ better. Chronic means it has settled in and is here to stay – or it wants to be here to stay.
I want the illness gone.
But chronic is chronic because no one really knows exactly how to cure it.
One of my vets said, “Put 5 vets in a room and you will get 7 different opinions….”
I don’t want to put you through all of our many decisions regarding her health.
I think it best that I ride the roller coaster alone.
And, I’m getting used to it – kindof.
I now don’t think every curve is the last or the most powerful or the end.
I just ride it and learn its shape. Lean to the right, lean to the left, hold on for the big dip, coast to the finish.
Most of all, I hang on.
IT ISN’T EASY – I SEE HOW PEOPLE SIMPLY GIVE UP…
Riding the roller coaster is tough. It is tiring. It is scary. Sometimes it makes me feel sick.
I understand how people want to give up.
But, I have to remember… that everything I am learning through this illness – good and bad – will help other horses.
READING A BOOK…
I’m presently reading a book about a young man who was mauled by a Grizzly bear in Alaska (BEYOND THE BEAR, Dan Bigley). He wasn’t doing anything out of the ordinary. He was walking into a parking lot where there were many other people. Seemed perfectly OK.
Wrong place, wrong time. Nothing personal.
The bear threw him around like a rag doll and then bit his head. Popped his skull and blinded him instantly.
No one thought he would survive.
Every day was a new challenge. Every day something good happened or something bad happened.
His caretakers were very stressed – over a long period of time.
It was a horrible emotional roller coaster.
The good news is – He made it. Everyone got off the ride.
To me, Tess’ founder is the bear.
What doesn’t kill me, makes me stronger… and probably wiser… and, in this case with Tess, I have also become very close to my patient – which is a gift I cannot overlook.
And when we come out the other side and coast to our final stop, I will tell you all about it.
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